All My Open Tabs #13

perceive me in all my glory

My last newsletter was my SS25 wish list, the theme of which was “wear things that make people want to bully you”. That’s what I’m working on this season. I am a deeply silly, oversharing, attention-seeker and yet, I am super inhibited in many ways. My friend Erin recently described herself as “so chalant”, (as in the opposite of nonchalant and a word that doesn’t actually exist in the english language). I, too, am very chalant.

And while I love and value the ways I am chalant in some areas, I could do with a little less in others. I am consciously trying to challenge myself around caring what others think. And style is a great way to work on this practice. Being in the world, and a little bit much for your environment, stretches your capacity to hold space for yourself.

I’m not doing this every day, mind you. Yesterday I dressed to blend. It takes more psychic energy to communicate your true bright self to the world than it does to pass as, well…normal. Some days, I just want to take my daughter to dance class, and the park and not think about my identity-stuff at all.

And other days, I want to be perceived in all my glory. I’m doing the work to allow myself to do this.

These tabs do not reflect that work but I wanted to tell you about it anyways.

These are the tabs open on my phone today.

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Sunday April 13

Number of Tabs Open:

Tab 1: Bri Foster Dolls Bag Charms

I managed to resist the pull of bag charms right up until I realized Bri Foster was making her signature dolls as perfect little bag charms. The Devil one is the most popular/cute but I don’t want my relig mother + mother-in-law upset at me so I have my eye on this pink zebra one.